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YMonday, April 28, 2008

Dear readers,
I had shifted my blog to,

Friends/buddies/BITCHES :D,
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Those who have not link me, link me now!
Tag me if you had linked me
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YWednesday, September 19, 2007

opps, sorry ! forgotten about my poor blog here. BLEAHS! xp
will update more after i got my new blogskin done :D
for now, i declare,
please check back after a hour! (:

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YSaturday, September 01, 2007

hi blog, im gonna blog today. seems like my blog's dead or something, so better update before it turn moldy! hahaha! gonna blog frequently from today onwards. my blog seems so dark and creepy ? :D that's me ! shall change it when im free. don't know since when i said that im gonna change my blog skin soon. im a bitch. haha. lying to blog &myself.
hmm, so far, august doesn't seems to be a very good month for me. everything just don't go along too well this month. money, school, family? everything just sucks can. i hate this month. really. argh. i really hope September's gonna be a better month for me (: may god bless me!
have been skipping lessons for quite a number of times already. i think for most of the modules, im gonna get debar-ed ! dammit. i shall really stop skipping lessons! i must concentrate on my studies. so, thursday 6th september, im not gonna go lustrous @velvet. haha. i mean it, i've made up my mind, if i really continue like that, im gonna repeat year 1. sucks. so, im gonna work real hard :DD jiayou for myself!! i hope there's parties on my two weeks holiday. so that i can go enjoy myself. ouh shit, got loads &loads of work to be done on my two weeks holiday. &i hate 3D design ): not enough time, haven't even complete the model &the presentation board. fuck life. argh. im so fucked up recently ): how how how !? im really not putting my priorities right. studies should be always first. yeah, shall have that in mind every time from today onwards. i should really work hard. homework to be clear asap!!!!
p.s: my right eye is so red &swollen right now. damn painful !! :(
dxo tomorrow.

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YFriday, August 17, 2007

krunk2 sucks. i wont want to go any beach/outdoor parties anymore. sucks. hot, dangerous, dirty. oh my god. it's very dangerous. those pervertic ang mohs, some even offer drugs. whoa?! fuck. i hate krunk2, saw a few of my school mates, damn embarrassing. dont know how to react when i see them in school, or should i say, how would they react. hahaha, im mad lah huh. just too many things happened recently. sadness all over me &liping. argh, bad month for us. not good ! august, so far, so bad. real bad. clubbing :D i want go clubbing! lalalala~ im mad.

looking forward to parties. dont know going or not, 1st sep-soft2,dxo &scape* 6th sep-lustrous,velvet dragon (ex-club momo)
my dear liping havent tell me which one she's going :D so we can go together. hahahaha! most probably velvet dragon :D any updates on parties can inform me!!! thanks alot.

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YMonday, July 30, 2007

it had been a long time ever since i post anything right ? there, i posted something. argh. so many things happen within a short period of time eh ? sad. well well, let's look forward to a better future! ;D argh. so fucking boring, still have lecture tomorrow. have to wake up early. tired. only first week of school. already tired like dog. i have to endure for about a YEAR. oh my god. life's a bitch man. beginning to hate my life, hate everything i used to love. hatred? wow. it had been such a LONGGGGG time, i said 'hatred' or something like that. i used to enjoy those times, slacking, working, clubbing, late night movies, im quite tired of those already. no money = not happy. well, can say i still miss those times, but without the fucking money, i cant enjoy those. holy shit! LIFE'S REALLY A FUCKING BITCH. mine is a fucking sad one. god is so unfair, why some of us (human) have the money, but dont have the time. why some of us have the looks, but dont have talent. why why why ! there's so many 'WHY?!' in my mind now. argh, really.. no money! how?! no money = no slacking = no clubbing = NO SHOPPING ?! omfg. this is the third time im gonna type this, LIFE'S A BITCH. go fuck yourself. argh. im so not gentle, no wonder im not attached. damn sad regarding this :'( i miss clubbing. i miss shopping, i miss slacking! argh. i've decided ! to save money and get myself a new handphone and a digital camera. if only i can save. lol. i can hardly save money nowadays. imagine i go school with a pathetic $2 ?! LMAO. money money money ! it's all about the money !
im so stressed nowadays, dont ask me what, there's alot alot alot. really. too much to even type out. &some you guys may even think it's freaking SILLY &LAME. so, i better not. that's the aftermath of keeping to much unhappiness in my heart for a long long time. so, volcano erupted at the maximum. too emo these days. trying to cheer up. bad things happened to me all at one go. backstabbing, lies, being make fun &stuffs. argh. dont say already. really sad.
there's something i would like to clarify here. I DID NOT GO FOR A FUCKING NOSE JOB AITES ! ): stop saying that my nose is fake one. i feel sad. my nose is 100% natural and real okays ! so stop saying that i went for a nose job and things liddat. c'mon la. im only 16going17, where i gonna get the money for a nose job?! oh my god. and im really 16going17 aites ! hmph!!

laptop spoilt, will update asap. i miss clubbing.
p.s, decided to enroll for dance class when i have money.
hope i wont be late for tomorrow's lecture. may god bless me (:

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YSunday, June 17, 2007

mos was fun ! haha. but the damn queue was so fucking long la can. walao eh. queued for like more than a hour. idiotic seh! ): so slow leh the bouncers. i think it's because they're strict. you have to like go thru 3-4 bouncers before you can enter mos itself. oh my god man. im so stupid la! the 3rd bouncer asked me if i have any ciggs or lighters with me. common sense should say a NO and they wouldnt check right ! but i said 'yeah, i've a lighter with me' then i fucking open my pouch and let him see my ciggs. ARGHH! so stupid la ): i just bought the ciggs you know! heart pain~ all throw away. dammit T.T so saddening, dont have any ciggs for that day already. stupid. i should have passed my ciggs to belinda or something. hais ! so sad luh ! mos alot of perverts ! LOL ? really lor. hahahahaha. cant wait to go clubbing again ! weeweets. shall update next time.

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12:28 AM

YMonday, June 11, 2007

today was FUN &SCARY.
shop alot leh ! hahahaha ! bought alot of things :DD three earrings, two t-shirts, one eyeliner, one top, one black tube dress, one white pouch. WAHHHH alot of things :D so damn nice leh. hahahaha ! i like :D yay yay ! so happy. haha. today went to f.e.p to get my handphone (which i've forgotten to bring back home the previous night) from shop. then wait for that liping to come. she's always always forever LATE. still got the cheek to ask me fetch her from the mrt station ! aiyoh, actually wanted to buy shoes la. but liping asked me dont buy at f.e., buy at bugis. at last i didnt buy any shoes -.-" she said bugis got ): but dont have. walau eh~ the shoe really very nice leh. very victoria style ;D still thinking wanna get that pair of heels anot. damn prettae =DD~~ lol. that stupid dumbass liping keep acting like those english-speaking girls. oh my god ! LOL. so damn slang la. walau eh. keep making me laugh. hahaha! went to my cousin's house after going bugis. around 7plus.
i alighted at lakeside mrt station. i walked to the bus-stop to wait for bus 98. after 20 minutes or so, the bus finally came. i board the bus. the bus was so crowded that i've to stand (near back door which people usually alight). after a few bus-stops, (1 bus-stop before my destinated bus-stop) there's this particular bus-stop which alot alot of people will alight. can say almost half of the passengers will alight. then i was standing near the door right, this freaking chee bye guy was standing behind me, he was standing very very very near to me, using his lj to like erm. ARGH ! dont know la ! at first i thought he wanted to alight la. then who knows he's like harassing me !!!!!! after around 5 to 10 seconds, i felt that something was not right, i wanted to move away BUT HE'S USING HIS HAND TO BLOCK ME ))': i was so damn scared. i dont know what to do leh. somemore got this uncle say loudly, wah! here so squeezey ! because he was standing really CLOSE to me, machiam we are couples. like body against body. OH MY GOD MAN! T.T really feel like slapping him la. THEN I FINALLY MOVED AWAY FROM HIM. got this auntie witness the whole process, i looked at her and give her a uneasy expression while the guy was behind me. i think she knows. she keep staring at the guy lor. walan eh. nobody help me so sad ! i moved away from him nvm leh. i alighted the bus, then he also alight. he FOLLOWED ME ? OMG. i was thinking, oh shits, got into real deep trouble. then i was trembling la. i slowed down, then he was like walking at a faster pace. he walked towards me la. then he like want t touch me again i faster 'siam' him. then he smiled to me while smoking then he finally walked away at a very very fast pace ]: walau ! talking of this incident really makes my blood boils ]: hais. im so sway leh. go clubbing also tio, now at bus also tio. hais. really tio chua by this incident. really ! sobs sobs ):

okay la. i go sleep liao. good nights all ]:
12th june MOS im coming ! ;D

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YWednesday, May 30, 2007

wees ! zouk was fun ;D haha. enjoyed loads. gonna club asap ! haha. cant wait for the next event :DDDD lol ! :D last night was really fun sia. danced alot. esp with liping ! :D shake shake shake. mira can shake her butt very well eh? ;D even liping also says so. weeeweeettt ! really enjoyed last night except for those sickening guys eh ? haha. i think janet was the most sexiest among us, that's why alot of guys are grinding her eh ? :D the way she rejected the guy was so cool &funny sia ! me &liping was like laughing while we were dancing. LOL ! so cute sia janet. the others went home so early, like 2 plus ? then left me &liping, mira with her BF. then me and liping were like, 'want go in there ?', 'hmm okay ! haha' LOL. oh my god la. so fun can ! im going again dont care. lol ! i love clubbing loads =D liping were also grinded by alot of guys la! haha :D sexy babe!

cant wait for the 12th, mos ! :D

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YMonday, May 28, 2007

oh yah by the way i love 转角*遇到爱 !!!!!! oh my god, it's damn nice. it made me laughed so hard, made me cry so hard too ]: nice nice nice ! must watch ok ! hahahaha :DDDDDDDDD

watching GOONG S (princess hours part two / prince hours, got 2 name for that =x lol) now. havent finish watching. stucked at disc four ]: so far, soooooooo GOOOODDDD !! nice nice ! ;DDD

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cant wait for the 29th yeah?! ;DD
haha! what should i wear on that day! oh my god ! so vexed about that. cant decide a top for that day. damn it ]:

lonely~ im so lonely~
im feeling lonely these few days yea? ):

Y emo-shitted,
12:39 AM

YSaturday, May 12, 2007

on the 9th of may, 2007, my handphone (nokia 6680) was stolen my some bloody fucker in the shop im working at, far east plaza outlet. what a fucker. imma idiot too. never put my handphone in a safer place, for example, drawer. freak man ! ); lost all my contacts, my images, my handphone games. ARGHH! the most saddening part is i cannot take any pictures !!!!!!!!! ): that makes me the most sad. hais. sob sob ! guys, please give me your handphone numbers as i freaking lost all of my contacts. thanks alot.

go fuck the mother fucker who took my handphone UPSIDE DOWN. go out kena bang by car, mother go crazy, father go bang wall, sister go be prostitute, brother go be gigolo, kena strike my lightning when raining. i'll curse that fucker for as long as i could man. idiotic.

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12:10 AM

YWednesday, May 09, 2007

just another day.
worked alone today. damn lonely. but quite happy because of something (only me myself &i know) ;DD haha ! bleahs. dont want tell you ! hahaahhh ! cant wait for next tuesday to come ! heheh ! ;D secret ! sales was bad today. and got a scare just now. this tall tall non-chinese guy came towards me and said,
unknown-man: are you singaporean ?
me: yes.
unknown-man: actually wanted to ask you, would you like to watch spiderman 3 ?
unknown-man: you sure ?
me: YEAH.
unknown-man: are you really sure ?
me: YEAHHHH! (feeling irritated already)
unknown-man: okay. then shall we get contact ?
me: NO!
unknown-man: you sure ?
unknown-man: you really sure ?
me: YES!!
unknown-man: are you really sure ?
me: YES. (im feeling damn du lan by now, was thinking if he continue asking, im gonna GAN HIM ALREADY)
unknown-man: alright, nevermind. thanks. (walked away with a cheeky smile)

boss came, then realised i got no pay. &i actually still owe boss hundreds. FREAKING SHITS. SO FUCKED UP SIA ! hais. no money already sia. i owe alot of people money. ARGHHHH! fcuk all this shits ];

anyways, i got my acrylic nails done. it cost me a boom, 100 bucks. damn. shouldnt have add the gold colour thing. then would be much cheaper. i also bought my cardigan &ANNA SUI PERFUME - DOLLI GIRL.

Y emo-shitted,
12:08 AM

YSunday, May 06, 2007

off to work now.
tata !

Y emo-shitted,
12:33 AM

YSaturday, May 05, 2007

got my nose pierced just now ;) that's so cool man. LOL. ketahhhhh! tadaa~ nose pierced. looks kinda weird on me. lol. or maybe im not used to it. havent change the freaking stud from just now. dont dare to change leh. saw janet's nose bleeding after she change the stud. then i dont want. LOL. till now. i tried to take out the stud la. but quite pain sia. then i push it back again. LOL. now im like stuck with the piercing stud leh. sian 1/2 sia. today i bought quite alot of things sia. glitterish eyeliner, bling bling fake eyelashes, LV necklace, nose stud, sunglasses. spent alot today ! oh my god sia. gonna spent all my salary again ? ): sadded ! OH YEAH ! MY DVDS ARRIVED TODAY. oh my god ;D now have to find time to watch the freaking dvds ! hahahaha ! next week dont know when i want to take off leh. i need to go shopping man ! heh hehs ! ;D

p.s: i dont look like 19 year old or what kays ! im 16plus going 17 this year nia ! so dont keep saying i 19 or what la. idiotic. &most of all, im not married la. wearing a ring on my forth finger means im married. for god's sake, im only 16+ going 17, HOW THE HELL CAN I GET MARRIED ?! AND I DONT LOOK LIKE MALAYSIAN IDIOT. the first ever malaysian guy SAID I LOOK LIKE MALAYSIAN. IDIOTIC !

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YThursday, May 03, 2007

temptations plus addictions.
im kinda addicted to online shopping several months ago &it caused me to use up all my money in my bank. LOL ! all my angbao money gone. im waiting for the second half of my salary to be given to me. boss said will give me the rest of my salary when he come back from china. so, he only gave me $500. im terribly broke now. left with a freaking two dollar. sadded. cant even buy a pack of cigarette :[ idiotic shits. must wait till friday or saturday then i can get my money. danggggg ! gotta ask from mummy again &for sure she's gonna NAG at me tomorrow =(
today quite tiring cause gotta run up &down to bring the clothes if the downstairs dont have new piece. sales was BAD BAD BAD today. no people de leh. idiotic seh. tomorrow's gonna be the same again. cause janet gotta go over vivo to help out. not enough peeps. next week dont know what day i wanna take off leh. i want to go cut my hair already. seems like everyday im having a 'BAD HAIR DAY' man ! buey tahan liao. &i my hair grows already, can see the black black part on top ! so ugly ! lol ! only one month sia. what colour should i dye? the same colour or should i change to some other colours ? im thinking of red &purple. LOL. or even some weird colours. LMAO. dont know la. i go sleep already. goodbye. take care guys ! see ya around ASAP (;

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12:19 AM

YTuesday, May 01, 2007

off to work.
have a nice day, sinyi ! hahaha ! ;DD have a nice day too, guys !

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1:53 AM


yays. had a fun day today ? LOL. wearing my fucking heels =x almost fell a several times today sia ! idiotic. not used to it. i dont usually wear heels la. cause im not that short -.- i dont actually need them. went to collect my pay at C.Kuan today. around $54. cause only work for like few days after the cut off date. lol. $54 is better than nothing ! ;DD hehe. after collecting my pay, mira &i went to bank. there's so many freaking people la!! waited for like more than thirty minutes lah. fuck sia ! we were like so hungry when waiting for our turn. lol. *stomaches growling* haha ! then RUSHED to vivo to watch letters of death. to me, the movie was okay only. but at some parts, it's disgusting &scary la. then after that went to P.N gathering. saw my ex-colleagues. long time no see ! hahah ! then 'boss' was there ;D we went to pan pac hotel for the gathering la. so cool. got a room. drinks were martini whiskey with coke or green tea. i chose green tea :DD long time never drink already. haha. talk talk, drink drink, eat eat. lol. quite fun la. then they planned to go clubbing, but mira &i were underage. shits. cannot join them -.- hate being underage la. RAWRS ! idiotic. then we went home lor. no choice ]: sadded. tomorrow is labour day, but i still have to work ? LOL. okay lah. will update soon ! see ya !

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YMonday, April 30, 2007

when am i gonna receive my dvds ! princess hours 2 and zhuan jiao*yu dao ai. ;D cannot wait to watch them !!!!! arghs. &my online clothes !! * RAWRS *
cannot wait to get my pay for this month ! gonna bank in my salary, if not i'll spend alot =x


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YThursday, April 26, 2007

FUN on 24th April.

nanee nanee poo poo ! haha. forgive me for being childish (: once in a while man !

being a child is good at times. or should i say most of the time ! as a child, you'll have nothing to worry about, no stress, no bgr problems, no family problems. absolutely nothing to worry about man. that's freaking good can. problems can be solved. yeah RIGHT. "solved" in the "right" way. hah. only idiots believe that there's a freaking pathetic solution to every problem. not every solution is the best for the problem. to talk about childhood, it links to those 'fairy tales' which i love when i was a child. to think that the prince &the princess will love HAPPILY EVER AFTER. oh my fcuking god, im so naive to believe that in the past. idiotic me. it's not happily ever after, fuck those fairy tales. they dont even exist. so why believe in them ? nobody can promise forever. nobody can...

emoshits just happened.

im just feeling, neutral ? nah~ just below average ._.

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1:06 AM

YTuesday, April 24, 2007


nowadays, everything is about work. work &nothing else. busy working. no life ):
today liping came to visit, she cut her hair la. then it's like not nice. LOL. then she keep complaining. cut already la liping ! no use saying. just wait for your hair to grow ! ;DD
oh yeah. tomorrow i got off day ! weeeeees ! finally ! hahaha ! im going to nafa to pay my school fees ! yeah yeah ! hahahaha ! (; then after that go out~ =DDDDDDDD oh man im so happy ! haha !

Y emo-shitted,
12:47 AM

YWednesday, April 18, 2007

John Legend - P.D.A / PDA (We Just Dont Care) VIDEO FOR YOU !

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1:16 AM


Let's go to the park
i wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't care

You know i love you when you loving me
Sometimes it's better when it's publicly
i'm not ashamed i don't care who sees
Just hugging &kissing our love exhibition all

We rendezvous out on the fire escape
i like to set up an alarm today
The love emergency don't make me wait
Just follow I'll lead you
i urgently need you

Let's go to the park
i wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

Let's make love, let's go somewhere they might discover us
Let's get lost in lies
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't care

I see u closing down the restaurant
Let's sneak and do it when your boss is gone
Everybody's leaving we'll have some fun
Or maybe it's wrong but u turn me on
Ooh, we'll take a visit to your Mama's house
Creep to the bedroom while your Mama's out
Maybe she will hear it when we scream and shout
And we will keep it rocking until she comes knocking

Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

Let's make love, let's go somewhere they might discover us.
Let's get lost in lies
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't care

If we keep up on this fooling around
We'll be the talk of the town
I'll tell the world I'm in love any time
Let's open up the blinds cause we really don't mind

Ooh I don't care about the priority
Let's break the rules and ignore society
Maybe our neighbor like to spy too
So what if they watch when we do what we do

Oh, let's go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

nice lyrics isn't it ? too romantic for you ? haha. crazy in love with this song. let's make love! chey chey chey. im mad already. dont mind my crazy behaviour (: busy with work these few days. took off on monday this week, which already passed. LOL. now let's look forward to my next off day! tuesday most probably. cause im going nafa to pay my course fees (: heh hehs ! well. im excited. these few days actually i did feel lonely. but i love being single. dont have to worry. dont have to wait for sms-es and calls. dont have to scare (: that's really a good point. but, hmm, single has its bad point too. sometimes too lonely is not good. not good at all. feel like you're all alone, no one loves you and stuffs. alright that's pretty emo. ouh god. sinyi, can you stop all those emo shits ?!?! ;D alrights. emo shits

we just dont care
we just dont care
we just dont care

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12:39 AM

YMonday, April 16, 2007

im going out already. thought of blogging before i go out. amirah is at my house now ! yays. ;D haha ! ok im going out already. bye bye ! ;D

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10:07 AM


just another day.
very happy that i got into NAFA! ;D
but very dulan that those tiko peis mistook me as 'chicken' :(
kns ! im not la, and i dont look or dress like one. im just a normal teenager. i look like those normal girls walking on the street, a girl whom guys wouldnt ask for my number (:
i really hate it when people look at me in a way that i cant describe, as if i have something on my face or i have 'HEY! LOOK AT ME' written on my face ? what's wrong people ? what's wrong GUYS ? idiots. &for god's sake, please dont look at me in a 'tiko' way and give me a wide smile, that really sucks.
god please forgive these people for their fucking strange behavior. they're clueless.

Y emo-shitted,
12:01 AM

YSunday, April 15, 2007

oh YEAHHHHHHHHH ! happiness !
i got into NAFA !

im not school-less alr ! yays !

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12:52 AM

YFriday, April 13, 2007

sleepy, tired &LONELY.
that's all for today.

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11:52 PM


letting you go is the decision you made for me, not i made myself. letting you go is not a torture for me, im too numb to even feel the sadness. maybe to you, leaving is the best decision ever made, have you ever think about my feelings ? well, it's ok. what a big sweet talker mother fucker. promises are broken, feeling are faded. dont give a fucking lame excuse for the break up, just say what you feel. well, LAME EXCUSE ok. break up is because of you. not me. i hope you'll get retribution in future for breaking all the promises you made. god bless you ?
it's over already. im single.

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9:33 AM

YThursday, April 05, 2007

hais. this song best describe what im feeling right now.

听到我的电话 响了一生就暂停 会不会是你
我总怀疑 因为这原因 心情不稳定
我们之间的问题 是我不相信你 敏感又多心 怕你变了 因为爱你
爱的天气总是阴晴不定 爱的情绪
也在欢笑中哭泣 Baby, 响对你说生对不起
用错了方式去爱你 因为我太在意; 如果没有你
我的世界只剩回忆 每天只面对孤寂 已来不及
再说我爱你 自从那天分手后 停不住泪滴
想念一个人 能忘记自己 让我爱你什么都愿意
如果能在遇见你 把你抱紧 从此步分离 决不放弃
我要告诉你 Baby I'm Sorry

u told me you love me, but your actions tell me otherwise. do you still love me ? can you answer me honestly ? you told me you need me more than anybody else, now ? your actions tell me otherwise too. i remember everything u promised me. you promise me you wont let me cry, you'll make me happy. you promise you'll not treat me like how the bastard treated me. u say you'll keep your promises &i trust you. i know someday you'll talk to me again. im still here waiting. everyday, i wait for your calls &messages but at the end of the day, disappointments. well, i told myself, tomorrow will be a better day, im waiting here. if you happen to see this, good for you. but if you dont, it's ok.like what you've said, promises are not meant to be broken.
waiting for you;

Y emo-shitted,
2:24 AM

YTuesday, April 03, 2007

SECOND TIME WE QUARRELED. DAMN IT ): i like to quarrel. but i got to know what he's feeling, why is he behaving this way. hais. i understand liao la. he dont like people to interfere too much. so, i shall not. and i shall not ask too much. quarrel bring a couple much closer. i hope this applies to us too. i hope he knows what im feeling too. sometimes, i really wonder am i his gf ? hmm. i know im thinking too much. but his actions lead me too. maybe because he's those guys who dont put GIRLFRIEND as the first priority. at least, i know why he's like that already. and i know what he dont like. so, i shall not do the things he dont like. i wont sms / call him until he sms / call me. i'll wait. even if it's 1 week, 1 month, or even 1 year. it's ok, i'll just wait.

to him:
do you know why im behaving this way ? perhaps it's because im not used to it. in the past, you'll still sms me no matter how busy. you'll still sms me even if i dont sms you. but now, you explained, so at least i know what you're thinking. you know if i get a reply from you, i'll be like so damn happy, as if i tio 4D first prize ? you'll never know how happy i am la. maybe because you dont feel this way. boy, just remember im always here for you. i hope you'll still miss me :[
i'll love you no matter what. i'll always be here, waiting for you..

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1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly

are you remembering this?

6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're
with your

keep reading

11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more,
deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her
more than you,
deny it. fight back and hug her tight
so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved

Are you thinking about someone?

16-always hug her and say i love you
when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!

..20 u need to show her you mean it too

21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can still help

we might deny it but we actually like
and kinda
you to get us things


28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school/work, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

are you still reading this u better be
its important

31. Hold her close when she's cold and
she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close
and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose;
(it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her &then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Dont ever tell her to leave even
jokingly or act
you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her

remember this next time you are with

36. When people diss her, stand up for
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put
head on your chest so she can listen to
the steady beat of your heart, Link
fingers together while you whisper to
her as she rests her eyes and listens
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your
arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her
sweet dreams.

42. Comfort her when she cries and
wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you
love her.

youll never know when she needs just a lil more love

Y emo-shitted,
12:47 AM

YMonday, April 02, 2007

love the girl in your heart, not in
your mind.
if you base your relationship on
feelings, it will fail for there are
ups & downs in feelings.
girls are there to be loved, not toyed

love her for who she is.
don't even think about changing any
bit about her.
6 billion people in this world & 6
billion different personalities.
she's special & she will stay that way.
you change any part of her, you'll
change her forever.
don't substitute her for anyone else,
they are just unique in their own ways.

love whole-heartedly.
she sacrificed alot for you so you'd
better really treasure her.
she could have just got up & date a so
much more dashing guy in town but she
chose you instead all because of love.
so love her guys, not play with her.

don't just get the girl to beg you to
stay or whatso ever.
if you're with her, love her.

don't cause a strain in the
relationship, you'll end up loving
each other out of pity or charity,
that's not respecting love at all.
respect love the way it is &
everything will be the best it can be.

don't expect perfection from her.
she's the only one in the world &
she's done the best she could.

like another girl while you're in a
then I think it's time you remain
single for a while.
don't go around breaking girls'
hearts, it's the most tragic thing to

tell the truth, never hide anything
from her.
if you want her to tell you
everything, do the same.
don't go calling other girls "honey"
or "darling", how would it feel if
your girl calls other guys the same
be faithful, enough is enough.

socialise only when you're single.
you socialise & flirt around is to get
the girl of your dreams.
get it over when she's already yours,
don't ask for more.

it never kills to be romantic.
think, be flexible.
getting that diamond ring isn't the
only gift for her.
be realistic, she's human & she lives
life just like you.
something sweet & simple always
get the job done.
money doesn't exist between couples,
it's the love.

never promise her that you'll love her
forever because your forever might end
the next day.
love her as if each day is the last.

sweet talks only apply for singles,
not for attached guys.
do that & you'll really break your
girl's heart.
isn't good being too well-known too,
it'll give her a sense of insecurity.
remember, INSECURITY.

promise her & make sure you never
break it.
swear to her & make sure you keep it.
pledge your love to her & her alone.

loving her is giving her your heart to
break it but trusting her not to.
instead, she'll cherish it & protect
that's love.
give her your heart, your life, your

lay down your life & prepare to die
for her when the need arises.
but stay strong & live through another
day, she can never live without you.

never, ever walk out of her life.
she won't just cry her heart out &
carry on living as per normal, she'd
it her heart that you've broken,
how would you ever know how she feels?

winning a girl's heart isn't the final
don't leave her once you've won her
love her all the way till the end of
time, love her till marriage,
love her till old age, love her till
if you can love her till the end of
time, you've earned the
honor & respect for you've truly loved

she chose you because she believes
that you can fulfil your promise.
win her heart & love her over.
remember, the girl isn't a trophy for
display, she's someone to love, not to
show off to your "friends".
stay humble yet proud that she's the
one for you.
respect her for the way she is, never
despise her & never mistreat her,
never even think of toying with her.

baby, i love you. no matter what. can you treat me like how you used to treat me ? im really happy to be with you. really glad that i met you. you taught me how to love. you brought me out of all those fcuking shit. you taught me what love really is. to me, you're really important. i need you more than anybody else in the world. daddy, i love you. 我爱你. still remember this song ?

这种感觉从来不曾有 左右每天思绪
每一次呼吸 心被占据
却苦无医 让我着了迷
给了甜蜜保持距离 而你潇 来去
玩爱情游戏 我一天天失去勇气
单单为你心有独钟 因为爱过才知情多浓
浓得发痛在心中 痛全是感动
真正为你心有独钟 因为有你世界变不同
笑我太俊太懵懂 或爱得太傻
只为相信我自己 能永远对你的心独钟

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im here to blog about today and the past few days.
wednesday was my last day working as a waitress. bid goodbye to all, including chefs, colleagues, esp auntie (: she said she'll miss me, i'll miss her too ;D haha.
thursday i woke up at 6.30, set off to nafa at 7.30 to take the entrance test. quite a number of people took the entrance test on 29th march 2007. question for paper one asked to draw any object which got a disturbed surface. i couldnt think of anything to draw, my mind was blank la. i stared into space for like 5 minutes. then i decided to draw my handphone. hahahaha! here's some pictures of what i drew la. i know it looked abit retarded. dont mind my ugly drawing (:

question for paper 2 was about death, joy, and something else which i couldnt remember. i chose joy. i didnt take pictures of my 'product' for paper 2. haha (: anyways i doubt i can get into nafa with my ugly drawings. i went home after my nafa entrance test to take my clothes &stuffs. bag was quite heavy. went to meet mira to take our salary (: though it's very little but it's still money. well well. then went to mc cafe to slack &smoke till we die~ ;D as usual la. hahaha ! whatever ! LOLOL~ then after that went to walk walk at wisma. main aim was for mira to see her ahem* ! went to taka garden to sit sit ;D after that went to meet daddy at douby ghuat (dont know how to spell) LOL. then there's this ah lian la, keep pestering me for a pathetic $2 donation. &i didnt give in la. i insisted that i dont wanna donate la. i said i dont want, im waiting for people. so i tried to avoid her by calling daddy. then she finally go away after minutes of pestering (: daddy was late~ as usual. went to watch mr. bean at cathay. then ton at his house. lalala~ i woke up at 8 plus the next morning, but he woke up about 3 plus that day =x he's such a slowwwwwwwwwww pokeeeeeeeee. he's slower than me (: hahahaha ! then he go out with his friends la ): actually i dont want him to go de la. i dont dare to tell him ): i want go out with him next week too. but he said he's going out with his friends on his off day to dye hair ): i want to go out with himmmmmmmm !!!!!! but he go out with hissss frennnnssss )': really sad. hais. today wanted to see him badly, cause im missing him terribly. but he going out with his friends, then nevermind la. but he said NO NEED. im really really damn sad when i see that la. hais. is there a need to say 'no need' ? i said nevermind already means i wont be going. im really sad after i saw that la. keep smoking. went to far east after sitting at mc cafe outside mango. surprisingly, i fucking found a job THERE :D immediately, i cheered up! hehhehs! sales :D tomorrow starting work. at far east, mira is sent to vivo. WEEEE! soooooo happpyyyyy ! didnt expect everything's happening so fast. on the spot. start work tomorrow! hahaha ! &the pay is like not bad (: 900-1k + commission. so erm, im not jobless anymore ! hahaha! ;D yay babehhhh. i smile like siao after that la. haha. then went to blossomz to buy new top &i bought new shoes ;D weeeee! so happy today!!!! &one sad thing is he didnt even bother to text or call me ): hais.

baby, there's so much i want to say to you. i dont know why sometimes, you treat me good &sometimes you treat me so cold. or maybe im thinking too much ? why am i thinking so much ? have you ever thought of it ? is it your actions makes me think so much ? ): baby can you treat me lil better ? please ? ): i dont like the feeling. for example today, i wanted you to be the first share my joy of getting a new job, but i dont dare to message or call you. im scared later you say im irritating or what :[ baby, 我好爱你。
every little thing you did in the past was so sweet. sweet good night messages &all. 我好想念这些事情。
i'll still love you no matter what. promises are not meant to be broken. baby, ilu.

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YWednesday, March 28, 2007

argh, im so busy with everything in my life right now. no time to blog. work work &work. im gonna stop working on 28 o3 o7 which is today. right now it's like 00.15am. &im still waiting for my daddy to come back from his shower.

to my dear daddy:
daddy ar daddy, i really miss you like mad. you're all over my mind. i just cannot concentrate working and stuffs. i keep thinking of you. do you also feel that way ? or isit just me ? ): i miss you terribly. 我真的好想你哦。i really miss you loads loads loads. we didnt meet for like 1week &3days liao )): im going mad you know. it seems like i cannot get you out of my mind, everything made me think of you. im so in love with you right now, do you know that ! :(( im going crazy already~ i didnt know missing somebody can be such a torture. the feeling really sucks. i dislike it ! ): im missing you too much too much.
sometimes i cannot stop myself from thinking too much when you didnt reply my sms-es. hmm, honestly, im scared you'll run away with other girls ): i cannot imagine my life without. you're the one who brought me out of the darkness. 如果没有你,我一定还是那么绝望,以为全世界只剩下黑夜。是你把我带出这一切,我不可以没有你。是你让我再一次学会了怎么去爱。baby, 我好爱你,你知不知道?
love, sinyi<3

today mira was sick, she took m.c on her LAST DAY of work. well, she wasnt feeling good since yesterday. well. take care alrights ! get well soon :D i actually did miss mira. sales today was not bad. manage to hit 3.5 without Adrian. hahaha ! he's back tomorrow, &it's my last day ! ;D im supposed to feel sad to leave my colleagues &all. but well, i hate the chefs there. those who know me should know why (: cant concentrate when im working, kept thinking of daddy. im mad over him ): i've been missing him for like weeks ! well after work, went to transfer money. then went home. on the train, i saw this really OLD woman sitting in front to where im standing. she have LONGGGGG WHITE hair. which is really ugly for woman at that age (70+/80+) &for goodness sake, she's wearing a GREEN tube dress which i believe she made herself -.- it's really not nice for a woman at her age to dress up like that. &SHE TALKED TO HERSELF on the train while sleeping, she talk to herself it's ok, BUT she laughed herself WHILE SLEEPING. LOUDLY on the train you know ! almost everybody around her have their eyes on her. she keep laughing and laughing for no reasons, with her eyes closed :x that's pretty scary. nevermind her :D when im on the train i keep looking at my handphone to check whether baby replied anot. but, sad to say, he didnt until i got home then he replied. my inbox is full of his messages. read the all the messages on the train while waiting for him to reply me. just by reading the messages made me smile to myself. sweet sms-es ): he used to sms me when i didnt sms him or reply him. now, it's the other way round. sweet confessions, sweet promises. sweet lil' things he had done...

我真的好爱好爱你,你只不知道? 虽然 ‘我爱你’ 这三个字,我不常挂在嘴边,可是我真的很爱很爱你。我会珍惜我现在拥有的一切。我会珍惜你。

转*角。 我遇见了

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YTuesday, March 06, 2007

whoa. it had been a long time ever since i blogged something (; missed me ? o.o haha. was damn busy recently, work work &work. no time to make new blogskins &all. freaking sian. see my blogskin until i want vomit liao. &i still owe people blogskins eh! sorry to those i promised to make blogskins for, maybe you'll have to wait for a period of time. so sorry !
well well. let's see. I AM SO FREAKING FAT LA ): IM VERY SURE I GAINED SEVERAL POUNDS ); fuck. argh. dammit~! okay la. it's like o4.o6am now. so i better go sleep. good night, sweet dreams. will update as soon as possible !

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4:01 AM

YSunday, December 31, 2006

[x] stayed single (for 764329912130 months)
[ ] cheated on someone
[ ] been kissed
[ ] kissed someone new
[ ] made out
[ ] made out in a car
[ ] kissed in the rain
[x] fell in love
[x] fell in love with a fool
[x] had my heart broken
[x] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[ ] lost a friend.
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[ ] kissed under the mistletoe
[x] got a job
[ ] got straight A's
[x] failed a class
[ ] cut class
[ ] skipped school
[x] did something I was proud of
[x] embarrassed myself
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] painted a picture
[x] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldnt stand
[ ] double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[ ] went to a sleepover
[ ] went to camp
[ ] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[x] flirted shamelessly (humans cant stop flirting eh ?)
[x] visited a foreign country
[x] visited a foreign state
[ ] cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[ ] realized something new about myself (i hate myself can.)
[x] tried to lose weight
[x] dyed my hair
[ ] smoked /Just 1 puff.
[ ] came close to losing my life
[ ] went to a wild party
[ ] got arrested
[ ] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[ ] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I wanted to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[ ] kissed a stranger
[ ] hugged a stranger
[x] made new friends
[x] lied to your parents (always k. =D)
[ ] snuck out
[ ] got in trouble with police
[ ] kissed in a pool
[ ] kissed under the stars
[ ] did an illegal drug
[x] had the time of your life
[ ] performed
[ ] fell out of love (that was like 324328452 mths ago)
[ ] had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] held someones hand that you didnt care about
[ ] held someones hand that you care about
[ ] hooked up
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[x] gone on vacation
[ ] gone on vacation with a friend
[ ] witnessed a loved one die
[ ] played strip poker
[ ] danced in the rain
[ ] seen someone get in a car accident
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[ ] got a new pet
[x] am glad this year is over (FINALLY.)

now it's like o2.15, so i'm gonna off my laptop &slp. blog tml. byes.

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2:07 AM

YFriday, December 15, 2006

the time now is o8.59am. i woke up at about 7.25am. couldnt get back to sleep, so i switched on my computer. yesterday was fun. went to cash box. sing sing, and drink drink XD i'm loving it. yay. AND YESTERDAY, SOMEBODY HOR, GOT DRUNK LOR. then cry cry cry cry. crying like mad. at least i didnt cry. and at least i didnt get drunk. i only got high. =x i love vodka XD i love long island. cheers~! new year eve gonna go again. so, i better save enough money for that day. maybe $8o-$1oo bahs. should be enough. LOL. hope i dont get drunk. &then after going cashbox, went to mac, sit sit, play poker. &then after that went to bugis to get my bag, and amirah's shorts. i love my bag, i love her shorts x)) &i love you too. LOL. i dunno what i'm typing already. my bag cost like $26 so erm, VERY NICE LA. i love my bag~ XD bronze. WAH~ YESTERDAY TOOK bus 51 to jurong east mrt. WALAU NEXT TIME DONT TAKE LIAO. so fucking long. LONG LONG JOURNEY. i felt like puking when i'm on the bus. giddy. then somemore there's a les couple sitting in front of me. i was like wtf man. damn digusting. they kiss, hug, BLAH BLAH. EWWW~! then the gf was like not pretty la. LOOK DAMN NERD. then the "bf" voice SO GIRLY ? WTF ? what's up with girls nowadays. GIRLS GO FOR GIRLS ?! @#!$%^&* then some girls want become boys ? aiyoh. dunno what they thinking la. by the way, i'm not anti-les or what. that's it for today. going for interview later. wish me luck (:

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8:59 AM

YThursday, December 14, 2006

dear blog, i havent been bloging for a period of time. very bored nowadays, cannot find a fucking job. no income, no money, no shopping ): hais. WHATEVER LA. XDD you know~ blehs ! i'm crazy liao. yays ! monday go watch CINDERELLA. cannot wait to watch lehs. like very nice lor. the movie about plastic surgery blah blah. XD dono enough money not. so sian. now it's like 9.55am. NOBODY ONLINE DE? i o7.2oam wake up liao -.- NOBODY ACTUALLY ONLINE ? ALL SLEEPING =x and ya, i'm getting my laptop ard this week bahs. so, i'm gonna change my blogskin soon. very sick &tired of this ugly skin. it's so WHATEVER -.-"' LOL ! so, what colours should i use ? VOTE FOR ME ? ): hais. guess nobody would read my stupid blog. havent decide which colours should i use. erm, black &white ? O.o dono la ? tag to suggest colours la. dont suggest also nevermind. i'm so gonna buy PSP ! RARR !!!! so fucking nice. the pink one. so lady (: it's like so cheap la ? only $285 for the giga pack. VERY GOOD PRICE XD yay ! i'm gonna buy that man x)) i love PINK PSP !! =X so nice~ if you know price cheaper than $285 for giga pack TELL ME OK. XD MUST BE PINK PSP =x white &black i dont want. not special at all XD okaes. i guess that's it for today. dunno if i'm going out later. XDD BYES !

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9:49 AM

YWednesday, November 29, 2006

LONELY~ I`M SO LONELY~ I HAVE NOBODY~ I`M ON MY OWN )): feeling LONELY this few days. stayed @home &rot. not feeling very good this few days. stomach cramps &mood swings. ahh. whatever it is la. still not feeling very good now. LONELY! i'm crazy already. i also dunno what i'm typing. i just know i had to type. typing on and on. whatever i'm typing i dont give it a damn. ok STOP. lol. played maple story, and found it difficult to go back again. many things had changed. just like YOU. lols. lots of things happened these few days. i had some things i had to say,
TO xxxxxxxx,
(LOL) erms, i dono why u want lie to me that u have no gf, and i don wanna know. i dont trust u ANYMORE. then just now, you like admitted u gt gf. I DONO WHAT'S YOUR PURPOSE! AND I DONT GIVE IT A DAMN! XD that's all i want to say. haha. feel MUCH MUCH BETTER!
okays. tml gonna go interview @town &outram park. it's like o1:31 now. so, i'm going to sleep! hehs! byes. GOOD NIGHTS EVERYONE ((:

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1:20 AM

YFriday, November 24, 2006

Yesterday was prom night! (: fun. haha. A lot of people changed. maybe because of the hairstyle or hair colour. or makeup! XD alot of chiobu. ((: there were also alot of other school's grad night at the same hotel. haha. Everyone was given a disc and postcards. haha. but i didnt take the postcards. When we reached, we had to go to the reception counter. need to mark attendance -.-! still need to chop on our hands. i mean the chop something one our hands la. lol. anyways, i got 2 chops. still not sure of what it means -.- i think it's like, if u get 1 chop, nothing la. then 2 chops mean you're qualified for the prom queen or king la. lols. anyway it's lame la. lols. Then during the dinner, teacher will go around chopping on some girls. if get 3 chops mean you're the nominee for prom queen or king la. LOL. the prom queen very sexy and pretty ((: then the prom king handsome also. haha ((: then after that go home lor. SIAN SIA! go home -.- haha.
oh yah. i think i'll change my blogskin next week. k, nothing to say le. BYE ((:

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17 11 o6
hitsory paper was very BAD for me. Rise of nazi didnt came out. Cold war - berlin blockade, league of nation, treaty of versailles etc came out. SAD. I chose question 2 whish is about the LON (league of nation) and TOV (treaty of versailles). Know TOV quite well but not LON. SHUCKKKS!! The first part was: why was the league of nation set up? I dunno that part. So zer0 marks. I only wrote on sentence: The league of nation was set up to obtain peace among countries. LOLL!! Then the second part wad something like: 'The Treaty of Versailles was a failure' do you agree with this judgement? I wrote alot for this part. Wrote about 2 and a half pages. LOLS. Dunno la. Then the SBQ was abt CHINA, mao ze dong's great leap forwad. SB questions were difficult! Sianned 1/2. POA can go and die. Confirm fail de lor -.- oh ya, got some tips for next year o level, social studies. Those who are taking o level next year can try to concentrate on good governance in SG, sec 4 book. It's better for you if you study at least 3 chapters, must include good governance! and excluding merger and seperation! GOOD LUCK!! LASTLY, i wanna say YES AH! Only one more paper (science 5152/01) to go! YEAH!! On monday, i'm going out! ((:

21 11 o6
YEAH! XD o level over le! HAHAHAHAHAHA. Actually, 2oth already over. LOL. the science paper 1 quite easy. Physics part only, chemistry one difficult. Sianned. After that went home. Then went out. Went to town and bugis on 2oth nov. At last i only went for the manicure ($24+) and didnt buy the mask. Then today go shop for all the grad night things. My dress, shoes, bag, mask. BLAHH. LOL. My lehs are like so tired now. Went to heeren, paragon, far east plaza, vivo city. My dress cost like $136.45 from daniel yam, heeren. Then my shoes cost like $19.9o (LOL so cheap) and my bag cost like $24.9o, all from far east plaza. Then my mask haven't buy! Hehe. I love everything i bought today. My bag is like bronze, my shoes brown, my dress black ((: Tml going to buy colour contact lense. LOLS. dunno i got how many things havent buy. bleh! YESS! tml 1oam go dye and highlight my hair, $65. hahahahaha. k, now it's like 12.52. bye bye i go slp liao if not cannot wake up tml! ((:

22 11 o6
my hair is like gold now. Esp thr frinch part. its didnt turn out to be the colour i wanted, I really look like a fucking ah lian now. Brown hair with gold highlight. What done cannot be undone. Tomorrow gonna wake up early to wait for the starhub people to come my house. Install the internet thingy. The modem damn expensive. it's like $99.23 so expensive! So many things to do tomorrow. Ouh ya, anyone got lobangs for jobs? (= i wanna work. Havent call. Just now, in the afternoon, went to raffles city to bu mask, $7.9o. Then very sian, go jp. then bought colour contact lense at gp. $25, i bought the romantic purple one. Also, i bought the solution at $9.50. Spent alot today. Bankrupt liao la ): tml i gotta wake up 8+ So.... TATA!! ((;
p.s.: YEAH!! Gonna get laptop next month XD

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YThursday, November 23, 2006

o5 11 o6
erm. today was fun. went to the library to study. studied hard, and played hard too. heh heh, bet atika is messaging the chinese guy now. LOL! k la, atika. i admit we were a bit over, but we got his handphone number for you! you no need to like only see him from far, u can call and sms him liao! yes! and now you got his picture, you no need to go to the library you can see him liao. Yes arh, i'm so happy for you. Dun need to like that circled eyed kid liao. LOL! GOGOGO! These few days after my art paper, was like wasted. Didnt really revise my math, i think i`m gonna fail lor. Haiss.. God bless me please! LET ME PASS MY O'S PLEASE LA!
Math and Social Studies are driving me crazy! ARGHHHH~~~!!!! Toa Cah Soh, y=mx+c..... SG wanted merger because malaya was its hinterland, it wanted to set up a common market and also,it wanted to gain independence from British. -.-! Woah! I still got some more to type lehs. okay LAME >.< Now 12 le but i still cannot sleep. Maybe too nervous? Scared? Hais Really regretted not revising earlier. Dunno y my math so lousy. SAD! So please, if you are taking o level next year, pls start revising now! you may think i`m siao or what, but seriously, it`s not too early k. If you got questions on any subjects, please please please ask your teachers now k. if not you'll regret like me. hais ): 99.99% i'll faill my math n science . 100% i'll fail my POA. Hais, GOD! please help me! May god bless me anhd those taking o lvl next year!

o6 11 o6
FAIL! math paper was like damn hard n bad. not enough time. Oh god, i got 11 questions i didnt do. FAIL LOR! Social studies wasnt that good too. Although i know how to do, but not enough time. DAMN. didnt finish 1 of the SB question and one of the essay. REAL SAD CASE. Also, dunno can pass anot. Oh ya i was a little pissed off with the invigilator. She was suppose to collect the blank paper that were givben to us. She go collect my entry proof too -.- and she snatched my paper away, i didnt even have the chance to like stop her dumb!
i really very stress now. feel like crying. i really dunno how to express myself now, it`s like you know you gonna fail o level yet you are like studying like siao. SIGHS. I really dun wanna retake my o's. i wanna move forward, not satying where i am!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!! i think i'm going crazy )): i wanna pass my o lvl. walau! i siao liao la. Hais. Tried very hard to study just noe, but cannot go inside my head. STRESSED. very lost now, dunno what to do. Cannot go to sleep. It`s like 11 plus now going 12 le. Gonna wake up at o4.3o to revise chem. O LEVEL SUCKS!!! )):

o7 11 o6
chemistry waa very BAD. 100% fail. confirm., HAIS real sad, studied very hard last min and fail. i feel that i`m wasting my parents money taking o level. i really regret not revising earlier )): aiyer, dunno how many times i said that sentence liao. stressing o's. Hais. Studied physics like mad just now. HAHS, let's rebvise, k.e is the energy possessed by and object by the virtue of its motion. g.p.e is the energy possessed by an object of its position. centre of gravity is a point through whish the whole object's weight appears to act in any orientation. Weight is the amount of gravitaional pull on an object. Mass is the amount of matter/substance in a body/object. Power is the rate of change of energy. Energy is the ability to do work. P=E/t=W/t. Current is the measurement of rate of flow of charges. I=Q/t. E.m.f of a cell is the amount of non-electrical energy converted to electrical energy to drive a unit charge round a circuit.. V=E/t. P.d between two points in a circuit is the amount of electrical enery converted to other forms of energy when a unit charge passes through the 2 points. Conduction is the transfer of thermal energy by means of currents in the material medium. Radiation is the process of heat transfer by infra-red radiation through any medium or without material medium.
Whoaa. that's ALOT of physics. now the i know i can remember all these. ARGHHH! but dunno how to do the questions. SHITEDD!!! >.< hope i know how to do the physics and english paper tomorrow! GOOD LUCK SINYI!! i siao liao.

o8 11 o6
DIFFICULT! all the papers today were difficult! saddening , report came out instead of formal letter for english paper 1. Shucks! Actually predictable bah. Report of proposal hadn't came out for the past few years. Composition quite long, about 3 and a half pages long. Didnt had enough time to count the number of words. When the time is up, i just finish writing my report. Just nice. Dunno how many words i wrote for my essay. Oh ya, for your information, i had done question 1. Sianned. Paper 2, worse. Chim vocab. Didnt know any one of the vocab question. Same as paper 1, i did not had enough time to count the words because i rewrote my summary. I scared later too messy -.-! Then no time to count. Physics paper was damned difficult. Only 1 question on defination. SHUCKKKKSSSS!!! dunno i learn so much for what. Stupid >.< question 2 quite easy. The hammer question, i didnt finish it, 5 marks gone. Anyway, if i were to do it, i probably wouldnt get it correct. Hais. Me so lousy! O level exams r making me crazy!! Stressing, tml no exams, but on friday got math paper 2! scary! aiyah, anyway i'll fail my o's. HAIS. )):

o9 11 o6
no paper today. so got more time to revise math. Hais, i'm so scared. My math, gonecase. alot of things i dont understand. like transformation and trigonometry. My trigonometry sucks, so does my transformation. Sian 1/2. i only know toa cah soh, but dono how to use. ZZZ. my transformation, aiyo! dunno how to fins shear factor all that. SHIT! hais. sadded. >.< oh, damn, cannot remember mean mode median. mean is the....... -.-"' mode is the number that appear the most no. of times. Median is the middle number. Mean still canno remember!! tomorrow must memorise again!! just now in the afternoon, went to nbl to study. Do little questions in 5 year series but i asked those things which i dunno. Tml continue to ask. Princess hours rocks! (: Shin is so charming and yul is so cute! Anyway, both are hansem! HEHEHEHS!
tml gotta wkae up at 8 to go library to revise math! math paper 2 is at 14.3o tml, wish myself luck! =)

1o 11 o6
woke up at about 8.3o this morning. So now quite tired. Meet mira at 9 @ mac. We wanted to have mac's hotcakes. But, in the end, we went to ljs to have our breakfast, we went to library to revise maht. learnt alot of things i dunno. like trigonometry - toa cah soh, sin rule, cosine rule.. blahblahblah...... The question in 2oo4 o level math paper which i asked alot came out! Woots! haha. Question 9. The pole one. Similar question (: but some parts i dunno how to do sia. SAD. sure fail. Still got 3 more subjects to go = 4 more papers to go: poa paper1 and 2, history, science paper 1 (MCQ). O level faster over pls. i wan dye my hair purple n highlight red! ((: or dye brown and highlight very light brown/ gold. hehheh~! cannot wait to dye my hair! lalalala! Gonna go to the library tml and have "poa intensive" from tml to tues. No exam till wed. wed got poa paper 2. K then! byes. ((; may god bless me for the rest of my papers! Hope i can pass poa!

11 11 o6
hais. very very stressed today. Tried to study poa just now. but cannot. Tolerate so long le, today broke down. Really dunno what to do. The feeling is like, you know u gonna fail, but you study , dunno study for what!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!!! STUPID ME! very sad now la. BYE.

14 11 o6
Poa sucks! i hate accounts now. NO! I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT KNOWING HOW TO DO. i didnt study hard for poa past few days or i can say past 2 years. Never even remember the formats. Whatever la. Study also fail. WTH sia. Better no need study right. These few days, i had think about alot of things. What if i fail o level? Retake next year lor. Whta if i no school to study? Take private lor. Hais. Failuer in studies doesnt mean the end of the world right? Next year study harder! dont wnna think so much liao. I doubt i'll pass my english my english, math and science. Okay stupid. That is as good as faillingeverything... Whatever la! now then i regret. too late... everything is too late. Giving up on my poa. and i still havent study my history, 17 11 o6 is my history paper liao. i really dunno what i'm doing ): hais. Wasting my parent's money to take o lvl. Dumb me. Tml poa paper 2. SHUCKKSSS!! lastly, i really hope i dont have to retake my o's. i really hope )):

16 11 o6
History! poa! GOING CRAZY! HISTORY IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!! ahh!! cannot remember history things i think i'm gonna fail liao >.< hais. I studied on the rise of nazi in germany. HOPE IT WILL COME OUT TOMORROW!!! Please arh! hope one of tml SEQ will test on the rise of nazi! PLEASE!~ Sad. I think i gonna have depression soon! ARGHHH!!! ok, i go study liao!


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YTuesday, October 31, 2006

well.. it had been such a long long time since i last blogged. what can i say. o levels are just a week away and i'm still blogging here.

reason why i'm here:-

25 1o o6 (my birthday)

worst birthday ever although i got a new mp3 - zen neeon 6 GB. hais. sad enuff. only my best friends wished me happy birthday. others? none had. lame. i'm jsut talking nonsense or whatever u call it, crap? BLAH BLAH. i'm just sad. thought of suiciding if i fail my o's. AHHH! that's lame enough.

31 1o o6
could be the worst day ever. saddest day ever? though i didnt cry. i think i couldnt finish my art paper 2. i'm gonna die. hais. i dont know what to do. cry? laugh? suicide? hais. dont know what the fuck i'm even writing. just type for the sake of typing? BLAHS. i'm so lonely. problems, studies, bgr (ok that sucks totally. didnt even have a relationship) what problem i could have? ok lets cancel BGR off the list of problems. i could not sleep well for the past few weeks. BECAUSE OF O LEVEL. damn it. i hate o level. so stressing. BLAHS! i off to do my art paper 2 now. byes. will blog again o's are over. wish me luck fer the damned o levels.

Upcoming events:
First o level paper - ART PAPER o1 ` o1 11 o6
Last o level paper - SCIENCE PAPER o1 ` 2o 11 o6 (YES! FREEDOM. FINALLY)
Prom Night (Grad Night) ` 23 11 o6 @ SwissHotel (cityhall)
BUY GUITAR! yes. i'm gonna learn. (:

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YSaturday, August 26, 2006

hi. ya ya. the irritating me is back. lalala~ don care so much nowadays. hais. saddening. )): taken my o lvl oral. it was SCARY. passage abit abitdifficult. like the word physiotherapists. hahahaha. lucky i`m pro. LOLLLL! omg la. so bhb. haha. ok la. lucky i know how to pronounce. lalalalalalalalalala~ SIAN LOR. i`m so lonely. i have nobody. i`m on my own~~ my turn to sing this bloody song!! ARGH~ )): y u always disappoint me! hais nvm bout it. this fucking week, i`m like spending ALOT OF MONEY LA!! spenthrift me~ MUST START TO SAVE LIAO!!@#$%^&* ok la. dono what to say liao. blabs!

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YSaturday, August 19, 2006

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
Are You Right or Left Brained?

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You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.
What's Your Personality Type?

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YSunday, August 13, 2006

after a week of nonsense. i`m back. whatever la. didnt go that blardy parade thingy. didnt bother to. cousin passed me her phone. so i`m like using nokia 668o or whatever the model is. my life totally sucks. hais. fri was a total nightmare. my heart was like beating so fast when teacher read out the o lvl MT results according to index no. omg. that was the feeling that i never want to have again. nervous or whatever u call it. and i just f*cking got a B3 and MERIT for my oral. shit. dunno whether to retake or not. )): wat u all suggust ? hais. i`m just a failure. failures. hais.
p.s. ; i miss you :((

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YWednesday, August 09, 2006

hais. you and i. drifting a p a r t, day by day. by now, we are completely apart. no news from you. nothing. ): i used to get 1 or 2 messages from you. but now, i didn`t even get a reply from you. maybe you got a new life. new circle or friends. or even a new girlfriend. hais. sometimes i guess i should just let go. but, i cant. you know how much it hurts when i... hais forget it la. you dont even fucking care or read my blog. HAIS. i just want you to be happy. i really hope you are happy with your new life, new girl. if you are feeling low, you can like share with me your problems and all. ARGH. i know u wont. or i should say i confirm you wouldn`t. HAIS. how i wish i can turn back time. i`m still hoping that we can be like what we used to be in the past. :'( i know. past is the past. i know as time goes by, you will like forget my name forget the memories we shared. hais. but i won't. i`ll still be the girl that read your blog, the girl that don't dare to msg you anymore, the girl that would miss you every now and then, the girl that supports you in everything you do in silence, the girl that would cry for you. and the girl who still loves you )': hais. take care, boii.

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HI EVERYONE. LONG TIME NO BLOG ALR. yeah. no internet. life sucks. no blogging. no chatting. no playing games )): life sucks like that. ytd went to watch CLICK. it`s so damn funny. kept laughing. please go and watch CLICK if you have not. lol. it`s worth it ((: aiyer. i have nth to say liao lor. lol. so long didn`t blog liao. miss my blog ((: and i miss someone else XD hahahahahahahahahaha. =.= i so bo liao. i`m missing maple. i`m missing gb. argh. whatever la. i miss all the online games. POOL XD next monday holiday. tml oso holiday. so many holidays :D ok la. see when i can online then blog lor. XD misses EVERYONE XD including maple etc. lol.

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YMonday, July 31, 2006

okae guys. since A LONG TIME i update my blog liao. VERY LONG. )): i just don have the fucking internet la. suck cock and die siol. LOL. this period of time is quite sad la. saturday my mum`s friend duaghter just passed away. and she`s like primary 3 only. so sad )): she`s like okay lor. no illness or what. she just fainted 2 times and went into coma for 2 weeks )): SADDENING. then friday, doctor say her brian dead alr. so sadding. i feel sorry for her mum. her mum is like very sad. ok la. that's all. don wanna say anymore siol. TAKE CARE SIOL. XD

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YSaturday, July 08, 2006

ok fuck. no internet. shyt. blah blah la. i tired of anonymous. whatever. i`m depressed. i`m not okay. i sucks )): hais. maybe tml blog again. bye. no mood.

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YFriday, June 30, 2006

whoa. time really fly past very fast. now alr end of june le )): means that O LEVEL coming soon. hais. i`m really worried. really stressed. really depressed. my studies, hais. so cham. i think cannot even pass my math and eng. ZZZ. science? no need to say la. i wanna pass my o level. every of my subject. ARGHH!~ shit me. hais )): whatever. dunno y i`m born in this stupid world :(
Today, sian. got physics, got chemistry. lalala. i love physics but i hate the topic dynamics (the one about NEWTON or whatever)~ i love chem but i hate the chemical equations. ZZZ -.-"' okeh la. today i finally understood 48.88% of the newton topic or whatever ((: all thanks to MR YIP and AMIRAH. LOLLLL. she says she love to explain. HAHA XD right? lmao. chemistry today was fun. mrs hong loves to joke and at the same time, scream. lol. she`s strict so is mr yip. lalala~ didnt go for p.o.a remedial. because i didnt do the homework. HAHA. i dunno how to do ma ): somebody teach me p.o.a please ((: someone please be kind to be my TEACHER. lol. saturday, sunday, monday. no school. and great! i got very little homework lor. VERY "LITTLE" lor. sure can FINISH on time de lor. all thanks to MR RAHIM. cheebye. -.-! i dont mean to scold him la, AIYAH he very kp one leh. whole class never print the thingy la. i didnt print b`coz my printer bo ink ma!~ argh. go complain to mr chew fer what. then TADAAA! 60 pieces of sketches, must be seen on next tuesday. ARGHH, AIYAH. next time go complain to ALL THE TEAHCERS la. =.="' stupid. damn him! )):
Currently Listening to: Chen Yi - Deng Dai

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YThursday, June 29, 2006

LALALA. havent blog fer about 4 days or more. lol. that sucks. no blogging ): whatever. lol. monday was damn tiring. dont wanna wake up -.-! but have to la. stupid school. i hate schooling days. first day of school was fun la (: ok and very tired fer the TEACHERS coz, they have to catch student`s hair - too longgggg, too red, too golden. LOLLLL~ LAME -.- ok la. as usual la, miss wee comment on my fringe. too LONG. lalala. whatever she says, i`m not gonna cut it. it`s like SHORT le la coz i just cut my hair mar. she crazy de la. ownself hair like shit =X opps. lol. but its the truth ok. lol.
tuesday is a damn long day fer me. LOLLL! assembly as usual. then mira put her sketch book beside her la. then miss wee was like walking towards us and she almost fall. OMG LOLLLL! mira said " ahh ahh, if she step on my sketch book SETTLE OUTSIDE." LMAO! XD thats funny. lol. now i keep making fun of her =D its funny. haha. and ART WAS BORING. lalala. LONG DAY, physics remedial 1 hour; chemistry remedial 2 hour. i`m gonna die. lol.
wednesday. ok la. very tiring day fer me. kept falling asleep =X played badminton. and it was FUN. coz long time never play liao. i`m like laughing all the time :) coz i`m crazy la. haha. then got english remedial, i didnt go. lied that i got tuition. LOLL!~ ok i know i`m lame.
TODAY. hahaha. a normal day. no humanitites remedial. but got 2 hours of PHYSICS. =P i DIDNT GO. lol. aiyah, coz start at 3.1o and school end at 1.4o -.-! stupid. so late. if earlier then i SURELY will go :D that`s all guys :)
Currently Listening to: X Japan - Crucify My Love

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YSunday, June 25, 2006

ok. ytd the dinner was great. 5 STAR HOTEL -.-! of cuz great LOL~ and the food sucks abit. made me wanna puke =.= today stayed at home all day. AND FINISH MY DAMN HOMEWORK. i know i cannot finish la. nvm at least i do. lol. tml reopen school le. holy shit. i hate school. school hate me. LOLLLL~ ok bye. got to do my HOMEWORK.
Currently Listening to: Li Jiu Zhe - Jie Tuo

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YSaturday, June 24, 2006

=)) just came back from a relative`s wedding. later going to the hotel fer dinner. the bride very pretty, groom erm okok la. lol. sian. i`ve got nth to say le =.=
Currently Listening to: Pan Wei Bo - Bu De Bu Ai

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YFriday, June 23, 2006

okay la. some fu*ker is just pissing me off. nothing to do isit ? zzz.
well well. sucker. stop crapping la. just wasting my time and yours. why dont you just speak to me face to face and stop typing in front of your damn computer ? SUCKER. you don have rights to comment on my blog, my name.. you know why. cause the BLOODY name of yours, makes you dont have the rights to. WELL, AT LEAST my name is much better than ANONYMOUS. i`m dumb so what ? at least i`m not like the dumbass who is scolding people DUMB. i`m stupid so i`m called msBENDAN.
Currently Listening to: NONE.

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