tired.
when am i gonna receive my dvds ! princess hours 2 and zhuan jiao*yu dao ai. ;D cannot wait to watch them !!!!! arghs. &my online clothes !! * RAWRS *
cannot wait to get my pay for this month ! gonna bank in my salary, if not i'll spend alot =x

SALARY !
DVDS !
CLOTHES !
MANICURE STUFFS !
;DD

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FUN on 24th April.

nanee nanee poo poo ! haha. forgive me for being childish (: once in a while man !

being a child is good at times. or should i say most of the time ! as a child, you'll have nothing to worry about, no stress, no bgr problems, no family problems. absolutely nothing to worry about man. that's freaking good can. problems can be solved. yeah RIGHT. "solved" in the "right" way. hah. only idiots believe that there's a freaking pathetic solution to every problem. not every solution is the best for the problem. to talk about childhood, it links to those 'fairy tales' which i love when i was a child. to think that the prince &the princess will love ~~HAPPILY EVER AFTER~~. oh my fcuking god, im so naive to believe that in the past. idiotic me. it's not happily ever after, fuck those fairy tales. they dont even exist. so why believe in them ? nobody can promise forever. nobody can...

emoshits just happened.

im just feeling, ~~neutral~~ ? nah~ just below average ._.

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1:06 AM

work
work
&WORK.
nowadays, everything is about work. work &nothing else. busy working. no life ):
today liping came to visit, she cut her hair la. then it's like not nice. LOL. then she keep complaining. cut already la liping ! no use saying. just wait for your hair to grow ! ;DD
oh yeah. tomorrow i got off day ! weeeeees ! finally ! hahaha ! im going to nafa to pay my school fees ! yeah yeah ! hahahaha ! (; then after that go out~ =DDDDDDDD oh man im so happy ! haha !
IDIOT IDIOT.

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12:47 AM

John Legend - P.D.A / PDA (We Just Dont Care) VIDEO FOR YOU !

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1:16 AM

Let's go to the park
i wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't care

You know i love you when you loving me
Sometimes it's better when it's publicly
i'm not ashamed i don't care who sees
Just hugging &kissing our love exhibition all

We rendezvous out on the fire escape
i like to set up an alarm today
The love emergency don't make me wait
Just follow I'll lead you
i urgently need you

Let's go to the park
i wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

Let's make love, let's go somewhere they might discover us
Let's get lost in lies
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't care

I see u closing down the restaurant
Let's sneak and do it when your boss is gone
Everybody's leaving we'll have some fun
Or maybe it's wrong but u turn me on
Ooh, we'll take a visit to your Mama's house
Creep to the bedroom while your Mama's out
Maybe she will hear it when we scream and shout
And we will keep it rocking until she comes knocking

Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

Let's make love, let's go somewhere they might discover us.
Let's get lost in lies
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't care

If we keep up on this fooling around
We'll be the talk of the town
I'll tell the world I'm in love any time
Let's open up the blinds cause we really don't mind

Ooh I don't care about the priority
Let's break the rules and ignore society
Maybe our neighbor like to spy too
So what if they watch when we do what we do

Oh, let's go to the park
I wanna kiss u underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
We just don't care
We just don't

nice lyrics isn't it ? too romantic for you ? haha. crazy in love with this song. let's make love! chey chey chey. im mad already. dont mind my crazy behaviour (: busy with work these few days. took off on monday this week, which already passed. LOL. now let's look forward to my next off day! tuesday most probably. cause im going nafa to pay my course fees (: heh hehs ! well. im excited. these few days actually i did feel lonely. but i love being single. dont have to worry. dont have to wait for sms-es and calls. dont have to scare (: that's really a good point. but, hmm, single has its bad point too. sometimes too lonely is not good. not good at all. feel like you're all alone, no one loves you and stuffs. alright that's pretty emo. ouh god. sinyi, can you stop all those emo shits ?!?! ;D alrights. ~~emo shits~~

we just dont care
we just dont care
we just dont care

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12:39 AM

im going out already. thought of blogging before i go out. amirah is at my house now ! yays. ;D haha ! ok im going out already. bye bye ! ;D

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10:07 AM

just another day.
very happy that i got into NAFA! ;D
but very dulan that those tiko peis mistook me as 'chicken' :(
kns ! im not la, and i dont look or dress like one. im just a normal teenager. i look like those normal girls walking on the street, a girl whom guys wouldnt ask for my number (:
i really hate it when people look at me in a way that i cant describe, as if i have something on my face or i have 'HEY! LOOK AT ME' written on my face ? what's wrong people ? what's wrong GUYS ? idiots. &for god's sake, please dont look at me in a 'tiko' way and give me a wide smile, that really sucks.
god please forgive these people for their fucking strange behavior. they're clueless.

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12:01 AM

oh YEAHHHHHHHHH ! happiness !
i got into NAFA !

im not school-less alr ! yays !
HAPPY TODAY !

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12:52 AM

sleepy, tired &LONELY.
that's all for today.

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11:52 PM

letting you go is the decision you made for me, not i made myself. letting you go is not a torture for me, im too numb to even feel the sadness. maybe to you, leaving is the best decision ever made, have you ever think about my feelings ? well, it's ok. what a big sweet talker mother fucker. promises are broken, feeling are faded. dont give a fucking lame excuse for the break up, just say what you feel. well, LAME EXCUSE ok. break up is because of you. not me. i hope you'll get retribution in future for breaking all the promises you made. god bless you ?
it's over already. im single.

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9:33 AM

hais. this song best describe what im feeling right now.

听到我的电话响了一生就暂停会不会是你
我总怀疑因为这原因心情不稳定
我们之间的问题是我不相信你敏感又多心怕你变了心因为爱你
害怕失去你爱的天气总是阴晴不定爱的情绪
也在欢笑中哭泣 Baby, 响对你说生对不起
用错了方式去爱你因为我太在意; 如果没有你
我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂已来不及
再说我爱你 ~~自从那天分手后停不住泪滴~~
想念一个人能忘记自己让我爱你什么都愿意
如果能在遇见你　把你抱紧从此步分离决不放弃
我要告诉你 Baby I'm Sorry

u told me you love me, but your actions tell me otherwise. do you still love me ? can you answer me honestly ? you told me you need me more than anybody else, now ? your actions tell me otherwise too. i remember everything u promised me. you promise me you wont let me cry, you'll make me happy. you promise you'll not treat me like how the bastard treated me. u say you'll keep your promises &i trust you. i know someday you'll talk to me again. im still here waiting. everyday, i wait for your calls &messages but at the end of the day, disappointments. well, i told myself, tomorrow will be a better day, im waiting here. if you happen to see this, good for you. but if you dont, it's ok.like what you've said, promises are not meant to be broken.
waiting for you;

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2:24 AM

SECOND TIME WE QUARRELED. DAMN IT ): i like to quarrel. but i got to know what he's feeling, why is he behaving this way. hais. i understand liao la. he dont like people to interfere too much. so, i shall not. and i shall not ask too much. quarrel bring a couple much closer. i hope this applies to us too. i hope he knows what im feeling too. sometimes, i really wonder am i his gf ? hmm. i know im thinking too much. but his actions lead me too. maybe because he's those guys who dont put GIRLFRIEND as the first priority. at least, i know why he's like that already. and i know what he dont like. so, i shall not do the things he dont like. i wont sms / call him until he sms / call me. i'll wait. even if it's 1 week, 1 month, or even 1 year. it's ok, i'll just wait.

to him:
do you know why im behaving this way ? perhaps it's because im not used to it. in the past, you'll still sms me no matter how busy. you'll still sms me even if i dont sms you. but now, you explained, so at least i know what you're thinking. you know if i get a reply from you, i'll be like so damn happy, as if i tio 4D first prize ? you'll never know how happy i am la. maybe because you dont feel this way. boy, just remember im always here for you. i hope you'll still miss me :[
i'll love you no matter what. i'll always be here, waiting for you..

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11:58 PM

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacket
5-kiss them slowly

are you remembering this?

6-hug her
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when you're
with your
friends

keep reading

11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more,
deny it. fight back
15-when her friends say i love her
more than you,
deny it. fight back and hug her tight
so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved

Are you thinking about someone?

16-always hug her and say i love you
when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE
WAIST
19-tell her shes beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!

..20 u need to show her you mean it too

21-kiss her on the lips
22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy her stuff. small things can still help

we might deny it but we actually like
and kinda
want
you to get us things

26-DON'T LIE TO HER.
27-DON'T CHEAT ON HER.
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-txt message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school/work, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

are you still reading this u better be
its important

31. Hold her close when she's cold and
she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close
and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose;
(it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her &then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even
jokingly or act
like
you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her

remember this next time you are with
her

36. When people diss her, stand up for
her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put
her
head on your chest so she can listen to
the steady beat of your heart, Link
your
fingers together while you whisper to
her as she rests her eyes and listens
to
you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your
arms as long as possible
41. Call her at night to wish her
sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and
wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you
love her.

youll never know when she needs just a lil more love

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12:47 AM

love the girl in your heart, not in
your mind.
if you base your relationship on
feelings, it will fail for there are
ups & downs in feelings.
girls are there to be loved, not toyed
around.

love her for who she is.
don't even think about changing any
bit about her.
6 billion people in this world & 6
billion different personalities.
she's special & she will stay that way.
you change any part of her, you'll
change her forever.
don't substitute her for anyone else,
they are just unique in their own ways.

love whole-heartedly.
she sacrificed alot for you so you'd
better really treasure her.
she could have just got up & date a so
much more dashing guy in town but she
chose you instead all because of love.
so love her guys, not play with her.

don't just get the girl to beg you to
stay or whatso ever.
if you're with her, love her.
don't cause a strain in the
relationship, you'll end up loving
each other out of pity or charity,
that's not respecting love at all.
respect love the way it is &
everything will be the best it can be.

don't expect ~~perfection~~ from her.
she's the only one in the world &
she's done the best she could.

like another girl while you're in a
relationship?
then I think it's time you remain
single for a while.
don't go around breaking girls'
hearts, it's the most tragic thing to
do.

tell the truth, never hide anything
from her.
if you want her to tell you
everything, do the same.
don't go calling other girls "honey"
or "darling", how would it feel if
your girl calls other guys the same
way?
be faithful, enough is enough.

socialise only when you're single.
you socialise & flirt around is to get
the girl of your dreams.
get it over when she's already yours,
don't ask for more.

it never kills to be romantic.
think, be flexible.
getting that diamond ring isn't the
only gift for her.
be realistic, she's human & she lives
life just like you.
something sweet & simple always
get the job done.
money doesn't exist between couples,
it's the love.

never promise her that you'll love her
forever because your forever might end
the next day.
love her as if each day is the last.

sweet talks only apply for singles,
not for attached guys.
do that & you'll really break your
girl's heart.
isn't good being too well-known too,
it'll give her a sense of insecurity.
remember, INSECURITY.

promise her & make sure you never
break it.
swear to her & make sure you keep it.
pledge your love to her & her alone.

loving her is giving her your heart to
break it but trusting her not to.
instead, she'll cherish it & protect
it.
that's love.
give her your heart, your life, your
everything.

lay down your life & prepare to die
for her when the need arises.
but stay strong & live through another
day, she can never live without you.

never, ever walk out of her life.
she won't just cry her heart out &
carry on living as per normal, she'd
die.
it her heart that you've broken,
how would you ever know how she feels?

winning a girl's heart isn't the final
victory.
don't leave her once you've won her
love.
love her all the way till the end of
time, love her till marriage,
love her till old age, love her till
death.
if you can love her till the end of
time, you've earned the
honor & respect for you've truly loved
her.

she chose you because she believes
that you can fulfil your promise.
win her heart & love her over.
remember, the girl isn't a trophy for
display, she's someone to love, not to
show off to your "friends".
stay humble yet proud that she's the
one for you.
respect her for the way she is, never
despise her & never mistreat her,
never even think of toying with her.

baby, i love you. no matter what. can you treat me like how you used to treat me ? im really happy to be with you. really glad that i met you. you taught me how to love. you brought me out of all those fcuking shit. you taught me what love really is. to me, you're really important. i need you more than anybody else in the world. daddy, i love you. 我爱你. still remember this song ?

这种感觉从来不曾有左右每天思绪
每一次呼吸心被占据
却苦无医是你让我着了迷
给了甜蜜又保持距离而你潇来去
玩爱情游戏我一天天失去勇气
偏偏难了难忘记
单单为你心有独钟因为爱过才知情多浓
浓得发痛在心中痛全是感动
我是真的真的与众不同
真正为你心有独钟因为有你世界变不同
笑我太俊太懵懂或爱得太傻
只为相信我自己能永远对你的心独钟
BABY, I LOVE YOU.

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10:18 PM

im here to blog about today and the past few days.
wednesday was my last day working as a waitress. bid goodbye to all, including chefs, colleagues, esp auntie (: she said she'll miss me, i'll miss her too ;D haha.
thursday i woke up at 6.30, set off to nafa at 7.30 to take the entrance test. quite a number of people took the entrance test on 29th march 2007. question for paper one asked to draw any object which got a disturbed surface. i couldnt think of anything to draw, my mind was blank la. i stared into space for like 5 minutes. then i decided to draw my handphone. hahahaha! here's some pictures of what i drew la. i know it looked abit retarded. dont mind my ugly drawing (:

question for paper 2 was about death, joy, and something else which i couldnt remember. i chose joy. i didnt take pictures of my 'product' for paper 2. haha (: anyways i doubt i can get into nafa with my ugly drawings. i went home after my nafa entrance test to take my clothes &stuffs. bag was quite heavy. went to meet mira to take our salary (: though it's very little but it's still money. well well. then went to mc cafe to slack &smoke till we die~ ;D as usual la. hahaha ! whatever ! LOLOL~ then after that went to walk walk at wisma. main aim was for mira to see her ahem* ! went to taka garden to sit sit ;D after that went to meet daddy at douby ghuat (dont know how to spell) LOL. then there's this ah lian la, keep pestering me for a pathetic $2 donation. &i didnt give in la. i insisted that i dont wanna donate la. i said i dont want, im waiting for people. so i tried to avoid her by calling daddy. then she finally go away after minutes of pestering (: daddy was late~ as usual. went to watch mr. bean at cathay. then ton at his house. lalala~ i woke up at 8 plus the next morning, but he woke up about 3 plus that day =x he's such a slowwwwwwwwwww pokeeeeeeeee. he's slower than me (: hahahaha ! then he go out with his friends la ): actually i dont want him to go de la. i dont dare to tell him ): i want go out with him next week too. but he said he's going out with his friends on his off day to dye hair ): i want to go out with himmmmmmmm !!!!!! but he go out with hissss frennnnssss )': really sad. hais. today wanted to see him badly, cause im missing him terribly. but he going out with his friends, then nevermind la. but he said NO NEED. im really really damn sad when i see that la. hais. is there a need to say 'no need' ? i said nevermind already means i wont be going. im really sad after i saw that la. keep smoking. went to far east after sitting at mc cafe outside mango. surprisingly, i fucking found a job THERE :D immediately, i cheered up! hehhehs! sales :D tomorrow starting work. at far east, mira is sent to vivo. WEEEE! soooooo happpyyyyy ! didnt expect everything's happening so fast. on the spot. start work tomorrow! hahaha ! &the pay is like not bad (: 900-1k + commission. so erm, im not jobless anymore ! hahaha! ;D yay babehhhh. i smile like siao after that la. haha. then went to blossomz to buy new top &i bought new shoes ;D weeeee! so happy today!!!! &one sad thing is he didnt even bother to text or call me ): hais.

baby, there's so much i want to say to you. i dont know why sometimes, you treat me good &sometimes you treat me so cold. or maybe im thinking too much ? why am i thinking so much ? have you ever thought of it ? is it your actions makes me think so much ? ): baby can you treat me lil better ? please ? ): i dont like the feeling. for example today, i wanted you to be the first share my joy of getting a new job, but i dont dare to message or call you. im scared later you say im irritating or what :[ baby, 我好爱你。
every little thing you did in the past was so sweet. sweet good night messages &all. 我好想念这些事情。
i'll still love you no matter what. promises are not meant to be broken. baby, ilu.

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